Quote: I have faith though that everything will turn out as it should. The Lord will touch us both.
I know this was directed at the "white" angel on your shoulder, not the little red one (me, lol) but I'll take this one first.
HH, I want to make sure that your faith is in the fact that God will provide you with a life you can handle and that you can prosper in should you choose to because one of the most difficult parts of all this is in the acceptance that it may just not be meant to be. I am NOT saying give up hope, but I feel like you are expressing an expectation that things will work out between you and W as a matter of faith.
To me, and this is just my focus on words/semantics, the thing to have is HOPE in terms of your marriage and FAITH that no matter what happens with your marriage that God will guide you, and you will choose to rebuild your life to be stronger, better and most of all, HAPPIER than ever before. THAT is where the leap of faith comes in. It's so hard to understand how things could EVER be BETTER if all goes to hell in a hand-basket but you know what, they CAN be and you need to let your FAITH tell you that.
HH, I don't post this to lessen your hope. I post this to make sure that you are focused on the right thing and that thing is YOUR improvement, independent from the state of your M.