Counseling was pretty good yesterday. I'm not sure what I expected, but the counselor took it slowly... probably because it was H's first session. I've been going since March 25. I did speak up for myself and tell H and the counselor that I wanted me marriage to work, but I didn't want the same marriage we had. That if that happended, I was out the door. Then after counseling, when H an I was walking to the car. I told him, that he had made promises to me and I expected him to hold up his end of the bargin. If he fell though, then I'd be asking him to leave. He understood and told me that he would not go back on his word.
The counselor said we will be redefining our relationship. We are more friends than H & W. I tend to agree and so did H. And its good that we are friends, but we need an "initmate" relationship also. And I don't mean sex, cause thats about the only thing that kept us from being just "roommates". But I don't know if we can do that. Its going to be a long hard road, I just H realizes it won't go back to normal overnight. I know it won't but, its hard to be patient.
