Thank you GH. I feel really good about your post. My question is .. What do I do know??? I do want to , I guess you can say, win my H back, I just don't know what my next step should be. I had both DB and DR books and gave them to a friend in need. Is there hope? I know there is always hope but sometimes I wish I could see past all this..but I am not God. I'm just keeping a positive attitude from now on no matter what. I do love your advice and input. It helps me alot. Thank you very much. And I will not share anymore of this info with my family and friends..I have BB now