Andy-Sounds like some of the symptoms you experience if you don't come here to "freak out" is plain and simple ANXIETY. I know it ALL too well. I too come here to vent so I don't explode my emotions on my H. It would have disasterous results, I know because I've done it. On this BB there are all types of people. Some of us sound whiney somtimes, but I beleive we are all strong. It takes a huge amount of stamina to sustain the blows we've all recieved. Some people I have observed have seemingly reached a place where they do not "freak out", but most of us have periods of times when we just don't have the PMA that we'd like to have. In my case, I come here to freak out too-quite often too given my anxiety disorder,BUT and this is a big but-I do NOT freak out in front of my H anymore. It seems some of us don't learn real quick,but I think that's only the impression we give by our postings. I know how I talk on here and how I act around my H are day and night. I feel I have learned a tremendous amount from the people on this BB and Michelle's books. I guess I feel the need to defend myself and those that don't always have that PMA on here. I think some people might read our posts and think man, he/she just doesn't get it. I don't think that's the case at all. We get it-we use it everyday, but we vent our emotions and frustrations on here-and thank goodness we can and do! I have no idea what this is all about,I guess it's just something I needed to say for some reason, and I opologize Andy for using your thread to vent. Rachael M.
