Letting go of what doesn't work is HARD work. We flounder, not knowing what to do with this seemingly impossible S we find ourselves in, and it's just plain hard to know what to do. In Andy's defense I think he's tried just about everything humanly possible, but it seems some things work for awhile and then they don't, so its very confusing. Excuse me Andy if I am misinterpreting your S. It's just my observation of your posts. What do you do when NOTHING you do works? Nothing? The only sure thing in life is change. Your S will change in some way and maybe give you something to work with. I'm not much help in this dept.right now, but I care about what pain your going through. I have my own demon of mistrust that I can't get past. The people on here are wonderful and full of advise from totally differnet perspectives-positive verses negative, at least in my S. right now. I really need that. I don't know about you, I hope you can get some insight and releif from where you are in your R right now. One thing I know Andy. You always come through to the other side-the positive one, eventually. I admire your stamina and ability to work through the blackness we all feel from time to time. It's who you are and what your made of. Good stuff! Rachael M.
