Hi all, Chrome has been on my mind too. I emailed him the other day to see how he was doing and got a short reply, that frankly, has me MORE worried. I really, really hope he can get someone IRL to help him out of this spot he's in right now.
We are ALL very concerned about you here. Just drop us a line to say that you are ok and that you are dealing with things in your own way, with a therapist, with your W or whatever. You are in my prayers.
Without going into detail about his e-mail to me he sounded like he was in a very dark place. I'm not sure if/when he'll check back in here...he seems to have given into Globule and resigned himself to misery.
I'm hoping he's still in touch with BF or Stig at the very least.
I am basically in a place right now where I either break my heart or destroy my world. I've tried to talk with several people about it, but the main response I get is "this is common issue that you are making out to be some terrible thing." It doesn't feel common to me. Maybe I have just led a sheltered life compared to other people. So you guys will just have to forgive me if I have a little trouble opening up because I already feel very weak and now feel like I am being very looked down upon. It is not a good combination because I already look down on myself so much.
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
Chrome, I'm glad to hear from you and I know others are as well. I know how you feel, I really do-neither answer feels right does it? I understand, that's all I can really say. Despite it all, wouldn't you say there are some good times though? I mean, you sounded really upbeat there for a few days when things were going well. I know how quickly things can go from good to bad and back again, I just feel like I missed something because I didn't see it coming. I certainly don't look down on you my friend, we've travelled the same road, and even though others here have taken different roads I don't get the sense that anyone else here looks down on you either. With that being said, there are always enough harsh words to go around this board, but don't take it personally, people leave them on my thread all the time Listen bud, I hope you feel better soon. You've got a lot going for you, even a stranger can see that. Take it easy.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
I assure you no one is looking down on you...at least not from this BB.
Is it such a bad thing to have people tell you that what you are going through isn't uncommon? That doesn't mean it isn't difficult, trying, depressing, aggravating...it's what makes you human. When people tell you this it's to try to comfort you so you know YOU aren't alone in how you feel.
Is there some reason you want to feel unique in this? Would that in some way make you feel special and validate that how you are feeling can't be helped....or that NO ONE could help you get out of this place you are in at the moment?
Just something to ponder.
Oh...and if you ever say such dark words and then stop communications...leaving us all wondering about your well-being again...I'll put my best dress on, my tallest stilletos and come kick your butt myself!!! Even if I have to get a step stool to do it!
Your feelings are just that, Chrome, YOURS, so don't let anyone else's outlook/ideas/judgments foreshadow that. You are allowed to feel what you feel, no matter what it is. Just try to reach out to people when you feel like you are drowning. I was so grateful to have good friends to call when I felt like I was drowning.
