I've been keeping up with you. Please ready my thread as to why I haven't been posting.
I hurt for you, dear Andy, and I have nothing to offer you. I'm emotionally played out. I guess if I'd give you any advice it would be the same as I've given myself -- take a break from "trying" and just "be." Hard for us DB's to do. Hard for anyone who wants emotional and physical intimacy back with our loved one to do.