I just want you to know that you won't be receiving any flack from me. I know that "in a minute there is time for decisions and revisions which a moment can reverse".
I saw with searing perception what our situation did to our children. I witnessed Sage rocking their world. I refuse to destroy their universe. Lotta words just to say that I cannot bear the thought of them having a double whammy.
Rachel, I am isolated. I am going through a very emotionally needy time and am grateful that I do not work where there are those who would help me cross a boundary. I mentioned this to my H one time but I don't think he got the point I was trying to make.
I look at this null time as an opportunity for me to grow and, in time, not be emotionally needy.
I would glady clean my the mud off my knight's once shining armor and even find a pedestal to put our marriage on when we come through this process. I'll settle for a wiser sage and savor my memories of my knight in shining armor. I'll settle for walking side by side in an evolving future instead of an image of how marriage ought to be.
Where once I was ridgid in what I would accept I have become very flexible and accepting.
So Rachel, go forth and DB w all your heart and soul. . .unconditionally, I will add.
