I am not here right now. I was sigining off after trying to catch up on Amy and I saw there was one unread post on my "old" thread and I decided to see what it was.
PL, you really moved me with that. Thank you so much for your sentiments. If you read my other "new" thread, you know I DID upset the apple cart and the apples are now all over the ground, being eaten by worms. I can't say where my marriage will go from here, but it is as fundamentally changed and in jeporady as it was the first time the bombs fell and I just think that PART, maybe just a tiny part, of that is due to the amount of time I spend (as someone recently pointed out and I tried to deny) thinking and stressing over my sitch. I can't continue to do that. I WON'T continue to do that.
It's a 180 that's been a long time comming. I am obsessed with saving my marriage...and me...but to be honest, the marriage has come first this whole time. It's not that my changes were not real but I think my motives were false. I want to change that.
PL, again, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for your post. It was the perfect thing for me to hear all things considered.
If you want, post to the new thread. I'll be back sometime soon...probably too soon, lol.
