Quote: Sorry you're feeling down lately. I know you're frustrated but you ARE making real progress. Sometimes you need to take a step back to see things more clearly. I just re-read my threads and I'm amazed at how far I've come. It's also refilled my patience reserves a bit.
Thanks SS. I am ok, just a little emotional for no real reason last night.
Journaling...
This morning was another of those really nice, but ultimately frustrating times. I always give W a quick back rub/scratch before I go to work. She asks for this sometimes, I offer most of the time (and yes, I have considered NOT doing this but I'm not there yet). SO, the last two mornings she has been much more "responsive" to my efforts, making little pleasure noises and asking me to stay longer. I have NO illusions that she is trying to get "more" from me since we both know I have to be to work 20 minutes from then but this morning I really thought things were a little "hotter" than usual. She was REALLY enjoying what I was doing and let me know that. She accepted me spooning with her (sometimes...well, a lot of the time these days, she pulls away) and it was a closer connection that we've had in awhile. Anyway, I didn't do it on purpose, but as I was rubbing her leg (she asked), I went too high and she said "my LEG, not my A$$". I was kinda take aback at how strongly she seemed offended that I may have touched her there. Geezus, it's like I am good so long as I don't cross "that" line.
Am I just being impatient and pushing too much? Is her heightened response just a small step and maybe I should not take things farther until she, well, what, SAYS I should? SO much of what I read from women here says that I should be more assertive yet when I do that, she seems to recoil. I want to just ask her WTH, and may do that but I wanted to know if it seemed like this was just a natural progression from NO contact to real intimacy? IS there a time I need to push or is it possible to just let things happen?
