In reply to: ... but to be very honest I feel she owes me something. It sounds terrible but I did not deserve what she has pulled on me in the last 2 years. Her gripes about me are miniscule compared to the bullsh** that she was up to.
You have every right to feel that way ... now with that said perhaps you should take up Racheal' mantra and "LET IT GO..." After all, how is this thinking going to get you closer to doing what works?
In time, soon after the ILY come from her, I would tend to believe you will also hear "I'm sorry" and then feelings you have about what she put you thru will fade away...
