I wish I knew what to think about my sitch. Things appear to be good but I am still not satisfied. My W changed dramatically in a very short period of time. We just celebrated our 10th anniv. and everything went well except for a few things. I got her two cards and she got me none. I said ILY and she did not. She did not because I am pretty sure that she doesn't love me. I happen to have most of the qualities that she wants in a man but I don't think she loves me. You have heard this from me before but an ILY was the breakthrough that I was hoping for last week. To be honest, as well as things have been going, I am not happy. The better things get the more I expect to hear ILY and it isn't happening. Why do I need her to love me? I really don't know. I don't want to confront her on this because I don't think it would be very productive.
I feel kind of lost today. I should be appreciative but I deserve the "whole thing". What more can this woman want? I feel like she is being very ungrateful. I accepted her actions, forgave her, and changed my behavior. I realize patience isn't my strong suit but I certainly am frustrated right now. Mainly with her lack of remorse or expalantion. I will get over this but I also feel like I deserve more. Am I handling this right by going with the flow or am I simply experiencing instant gratifcation that will lead to long term pain.
