Good to hear from you again. I think knowing your sitch is making me a little paranoid about my own. That whole changing too fast routine hits home. What you are saying is right on target and it sure is easier to follow someone else's advice instead of your own. My W is very passionate in everything she does and feels. She didn't want me 6 months ago and now she thinks she doesn't deserve me. That confuses me incredibly. My biggest mistake is probably trying to logic through things. I will get through this but I definitely have to change the way I think and react. I am a snapshot person. I react too much and too quickly to an individual sitch instead of seeing how it would play out. My stress level is high which makes it hard to change that. Maybe the next couple of days will help with that. I think my W has something special planned beyond what we have talked about. She has never been able to keep a secret and she keeps talking about our anniv. like she is up to something. Should be fun either way. I might even get an ILY. Who knows.
I have not forgotten how fortunate I am to be in this position. The pain isn't that far behind me and helps me to not get complacent.
