Things are generally good with H. He still continues to call me from work at least once daily. Came back this evening, and first thing he did was gave me a peck on my lips...which was nice.
H also called in the afternoon... told me that he has been offered a job in our home country.. Instantly, there was a "pang" of worry. We just moved here!!! I sent H a long text that I want to be supportive of his career yadda yadda yadda..but kids education will be disruptive etc, and if he intends to take the job, I need to write to the kids' old school. And he told me not to worry. He won't take the job.
I have to say that I was worried because our M is not exactly fully-healed,.. and moving back would mean easy access to ow, and of her to him.
H actually told me a few days ago that ow called him up and told him about some work news. Instantly, I was rather quiet, and H "why is it that the moment I mentioned her name, you are like that? If I can tell you this. It's okay. Don't worry!". So, what do you guys think? It's good that he is truthful? It's good that he could talk like she is just a friend?? H insists that it is OVER between the two of them, but somehow, I think ow may not think that it is totally over.
Oh well....what can I do?? I can't control her nor him... Just continue to be who I am...to be the DB-trained yoyogirl!!!
But I have to say no complaints so far about H. Sometimes I wonder if the last 1 1/2 year was a dream??? H was soooooo different and INSANE then that I could not ever imagine that he could ever be. I mean at least now, he is somewhat back to his "normal" self...but then... very very non-comprehensible!!! I guessed no point in trying to dissect his behaviour or thoughts as it would just drive me crazy. Just have to concentrate to be happy for ME!!! I have to say that when I am happy (or pretend to be happy), H normally reciprocates and could see his big grin..
