Hi yoyo, glad you made the move over here! I really have no advice, only empathy. While my H has jumped ship only to sail home again a few times now, I can say that this last bout was the roughest as far as waiting for his declarations of undying love, begging my forgiveness stuff. Well, maybe I wasn't looking for quite such dramatics, but it would have been nice.
I think this is the hardest part, the piecing, when we don't get the reassurance we need. All I can say, from reading over this thread a bajillion times, is that you can't stop doing what you've been doing. You have to keep focusing on you and your boys, whatever you had been doing with H has been working, you've just moved over into a new waiting room, ya know?
Hang in there, you have every right and reason to be nervous, but if you came this far, it was all for good reason, right?
