I am not yet piecing but as my H shows signs he is very near ready to come home I am experiencing many of the same fears you have expressed.
I don't know we will ever be able to get back the comfort we once had--we will never know that our Hs will not bolt again. I guess it is just a chance we are going to have to take. You probably didn't blindly trust your H the day you met him--that takes time. So again you will have to go through the process of learning to trust.
Oh, and I don't for a second think you are being impatient. You have hung in there far after most have thrown in the towel.
