This is pretty much a bump but I do have a few more thoughts as this week comes to an end. I am to the point that I wonder why I even do this any more. All I do is validate my feelings and vent which simply perpetuates the problem. I use this BB as a crutch for my anxiety. Hanging out on this board lets me feel like I am "doing something". In reality I need to spend more time away from this BB or learn how to use the BB more productively. Like right now I came here while I wait for my W to return my phone call. My feelings toward her are detiorating so I need to do something differently. She still consumes more of my life than is healthy.
This is a great place, but I need to change my behavior and quickly. Most of your sitch's are far worse than mine and I truly respect your strength for staying. I will be back when I am more healthy and can actually help more. Anger and intolerance are ruling my thought pattern now and may have led me to give you some bad advice. Our anniversary is 4 weeks away and if the news is going to be good I have some more work to do.
