Glad to hear from you Z and I hear the vacation went well. You are right about being ready to hear the negative. I pretty much knew what the answer but I was trying to build some trust by asking instead of snooping. It was also a case of trying to help her over the top. Things are going well and she is spending little energy on her "friends" but my pride can't deal with this game she is playing. Not just with me but with them.
The main thing is I want more. I have told her that her contact with them makes me very uncomfortable because of where she came in contact with them. She met them under the premise of a match so in my eyes that makes them off limits. I guarantee you that she would come unglued under the same sitch so I feel very justified with my request. The contact seems to be dwindling so I will drop it now but I had to push a little.
1 month til our anniversary and then I am done playing this cat and mouse game. She is "acting" like she is back but I need the whole thing. It has been 20 months since I heard ILY and I won't be her safe haven while she checks out the field. I can't take another tax season where she "totures" me with her lies. I would love to have your patience Z but I am doing my best.
