I too have let my R consume me to the point of actually maybe taking a leave of absence from work to get over these damn anxiety and panic attacks. Im in here -you can read "together again" It's been hell. H is here now, but I can't shake the betrayal and he can't give me enough reassurance to make me trust him at this point. He asks "what can I do" I have no idea. The damage is done-the trust is shot, and I'm in a constant state of panic. That's my life in a nutshell.
