Well I see somebody (GH) has their hardass hat back on this morning .
Good.
Because warm and fuzzy isn't going to work here.
Emily,
Please get it through your head that ultimately, which is NOW, it is completely irrelevant what your H DECIDES to do. YOU however, have complete control over what YOU are going to do. You have a lot of maturing to do, a lot of your own issues that you need to work out and a ton of 'stinkin thinkin' to overcome.
You can do it.
But NOT until you decide that you are going to do it for YOURSELF.
Who does EMILY want to be?
"HIS WIFE" is NOT THE ANSWER! That's how many of us ended up here. By losing our own identity. You need to carve your identity out for yourself over the next few months. THEN YOU will be the one making the decisions for yourself and those decisions will be healthy ones.