Emily, I agree with Frank. Just LET GO. It doesn't mean you don't love your H, we all know that you do. You need to detach from this a bit. It is destroying you. You are all consumed by it. How can you be a good mother to your girls when you are all consumed by your R or lack of an R with your H? It is not fair to them. GAL, if anything just focus on your kids. I know they are very little but their minds are like sponges, they know more than we give them credit for. Obviously, &h^i from your childhood has formed you, do you want whatt you are doing to form your kids personalities, I would bet NOT. Stop obsessing over your H. If he calls, great. If he doesn't, oh well. The way that used to help me when my H stayed out all night was I thought of him as dead, I know it is a bit morbid, but it really helped. If he was dead, who would take out the garbage, ME of course. Try not to be so dependent on him. You will be ok. There will be pain if you reconcile and pain if you divorce,sorry the truth hurts. The choice here is yours.
