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Instead of thinking you know what he is thinking or know what he is doing why don't you try believing what his words and actions?



Good idea gabby!
He always tells me not to put thoughts in his head or words in his mouth. Because I always have to think I know what's going to happen.

I don't know why I always do this.
OK . . . I want to try the whole innocent until proven guilty technique again but someone hit it right on the head when they said I don't want to try because if he breaks my heart again then I'll be the one that's totally responsible.
I am trying to protect myself . . . and you all know better than I that I can't very well do both.
I have to chose to truly let go and love him fully or protect myself from him and push him away!!!

RB . . . yes I did actually spend sometime with him before I snooped.
He came at night and we went to bed together and then the next morning when he brought all of his stuff I went through the phone.

I even put it down several times and thought of all the things you guys would say to me about not snooping because it only makes the sitch worse.
BUT . . . I got the best of myself and looked anyway.
It did make my H very upset . . . he went out and threw his phone across the parking lot and said, "There now she can't call me anymore." (because he thought the phone was broken)
It was a immature but almost sweet thing to do.
I felt just awful.
After I snooped I wasn't going to say anything to him but he kept asking me what was wrong so I asked him why he was still calling her.
He said he wasn't . . . so I told him I had looked in his phone.

I have to run . . . I'll be back with more thoughts in a little bit.

Sorry that I have you so frustraighted RB . . . thanks for being totally honest RB! I'm going to really try to prove myself so maybe you'll come back and give more advice.
Give me some time and hopefully I'll prove myself!