I snooped WAY before he put the wedding band back on. Not that that makes it OK . . but I looked in his phone when he first got here.
He and I had a horrible night last night. He went for a walk and when he came back he said that he was leaving today because he wanted to go see his grandpa before he went out on the road for three weeks. SAME EXCUSE AS BEFORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well this morning was better . . . when he left (20 minutes ago or so) he didn't do it in a fight and he said that if he doesn't have a training instructor to go with today he'll come back here tonight.
I am sick of going in these circles with him though. I don't understand. I am so scared and upset . . . I mean I just keep thinking of when he left in May. I see a lot of similiarities . . . the only difference is this time he's said nothing about wanting to be over. I just can't believe him.
Of course I feel that he is going back down there to be with OW. He could have seen his mom and grandpa anytime over the past 2 weeks while he was training. He saw his mom quite a bit as a matter of fact. BUT . . .
the point is he left . . . and until he calls me later . . . I don't know exactly what is going on. I have to go feed the baby . . I'll be around later . . .
