Quote: A little bit of both maybe! I am still pretty angry at him over the whole thing . . . it will be hard to not punch him right in his kisser the first time I see him. BUT more of it is the anxiety I think, way to see the truth and point it out!!!
You know what I think? I think your discomfort about this weekend is entirely motivated by fear. You are afraid of your anger (I think your anger stems from fear as well). You know what the best way to disable your fear is? Appreciation. Appreciate your H while you're with him. Anytime you feel any negative emotion, pick something - anything - about him to appreciate, and then appreciate him/it in that moment.
Quote: coming here and venting my fears helps!
Are you sure you're not practicing your fears?
Quote: It also helps that you all kick me in my rear and tell me to get moving!
As twisted as it sounds, there's a certain security in misery. Sometimes it really takes a kick to motivate ourselves.
“No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it. ” – Albert Einstein
