The outpouring of help and "strange acceptance" is more than I even really know how to react to.
I really don't know what to say . . . EXCEPT . . . .
THANK YOU ALL!!
Frank your post as always made me REALLY think . . . I cried for your situation.
I certainly didn't have it "bad" growing up. I just have what I think of as an emotional barren mom . . . and the only way she can make herself feel better is by belittling others. I grew up always feeling different and I was ALWAYS belittled.
When I would try to speak out about the way she made me feel I was told that I was "crazy" that I didn't think the way normal people do . . . and of course that I twisted everything that was said to me into an attack.
Enough about that!
I do want to move forward. I do want to learn. I promise I really do.
Question #1: Do I have to call off my current relationship with my H in order to work through these things?
He called me again this morning and talked for a long time. He is honestly a different person because he finally found something that he enjoys and that he feels gives him a stablity.
He found some self-worth . . . he takes his final tomorrow! I just keep telling him he'll do GREAT!
Our talks are VERY pleasant . . . I enjoy the "company".
I have to take some time to think about what all was said and reread through all the posts!
I'll try to address some more topics after I look back through.
I just wanted to add that I don't so much feel that I am running in big circles . . . and I want to thank you all especially RBinBR for smacking me upside the head when I needed it the most! ]
