Quote: Well I cleaned up my house a little this afternoon . . it's amazing how many toys and crackers get stuffed under the couch!!!
My PMA is slipping but only a little . . . and I have been doing some productive thought-stopping. I worry too much anyway. It's just the same old thoughts resurfacing. You know the ones
If he loved me than why would he sleep with her? (You've answered that one!!) It's not about me it's about HIM . . . I am not the problem therefore I am not the answer!!
then I always wonder if he ever thought of her while he was with me. I wonder if silently in his head he was comparing us for all those months. That really bothers me. I asked him this and he says no but he use to think of me while he was with her.
I just keep shoving those thoughts out of my head and telling myself that my marriage and my children deserve for me try to work through this even if he doesn't.
I may be doing these things for reason that aren't quite right right now . . . but in the long run they will be for me. I will be a better person because of this . . . even if he and I don't stay together.
Would it be alright for me to ask him to read the DBing book?!?!?!?!?!? I mean I can ask and he can say no right? What do you think
