General rundown on my sitch H:22 Me:21 DD#1: 2 in August DD#2: 1 week old Married: April 12, 2003 Bombs: Dec 12, May 20
No D papers have been filed and we haven't talked about D lately.
My H and I have been living seperately since December when he kicked me out. He called and wanted back into the R in Jan. Things were GREAT or so I thought until May 20 when he told me he had been having a PA since Feb and he definately wanted a D. Well he called me June 11 and said that he wanted back into our marriage . . that he could never love anyone like he does me . . . that he was sorry etc.
Well he and I are "still together" although we are living seperately. He is now in training to get his CDL through Synder . . . and then he will drive for them for at least a year (he signed a contract etc.) He's already come out of the honeymoon phase . . . when he was here for the birth of our DD#2 . . I said some REALLY hurtful things to him and I think I almost screwed it all up.
ANYWAY . . . I have been doing a great job of being supportive and keeping my thoughts about the PA and the hurt and bitterness I feel to myself.
BUT . . . I am REALLY hurt and I am wondering how I move on. I am wondering how I trust that he really "broke it off" with her.
Oh . . real quick . . . he says she was just a "booty call" but that she may have thought they were more. Supposedly when he told her he wouldn't be seeing her anymore she raged on about him leading her on, and so on.
So . . I am wondering how to start the forgiveness process. I am wondering if I even should. Since you have all been through this . . . I was hoping you could help me.
I have gotten some great responses on my other thread .. and you can read more about my feelings. You can feel free to check out my other thread and post there or here!
