Mattie-I have never posteed to your thread but Lily told me to read it-all I can say is WOW! UNFREAKINBELIEVABLE! What all you have been through!! All I know is the little I read and that was a bomb!. You are an amazing woman. I think Lily told me to post to you because I am going through terrible anxiety over my H. A which I found out about in April We had been separated for 6 months and I had no idea he was having an A-swore he was not, but my gut kept telling me he was. Finally someone I worked with saw them and I confronted him in C and he fessed up. You have enough on your plate-we'll talk when your up to it. I have alot to ask you.Lily knows we have alot in common with the little Mattie and I have a little Rachael that I am having to deal with through all this -well...you know how hard it is. I hope you went on vacation and it was everything you hoped for and more. My prayers are with you and yours. Rachael M.