Hang in there, you'll work out what you want eventually!
One thing I'm curious about:
Quote: Then, there's the fact that I keep getting all these mixed signals from my H or rather my XH. Hugs, kisses, alot more affection then I've gotten over the last 9 months... he was checking into a job in Montana the other day and told me he was going to call me up and see if I would run away with him and start all new with him!
Have you spoken to him about how this behaviour confuses and upsets you? I recall another post of yours where he was doing the same thing. How on earth are you supposed to get your head around separation when he is giving you these signals? I suppose he could be trying to lessen the trauma for you and is unintentionally sending these signals
to you. I hope so, as it would be very cruel if he was doing it on purpose.
Quote: But I try to look at the bright side... now I'll have all the time in the world to write... I love to write. Going to buy a laptop, sit in my living room and write my ass off!
and I'm going to go get a massage once a month, if it kills me!
You go girl!
It can't come quickly enough
And now you've spent your life
Waiting for this moment
And when you finally saw it come
It passed you by and left you so defeated.
Scissor Sisters - 'It Can't Come Quickly Enough'
