Actually, I'm calmer now. I guess W is trying to appreciate me. That's why she says she's going to get physical tests, and see a C.
She's said things like that before, but she sounds more sincere this time.
But you, Mattie...
I think you have the makings of that all-elusive state of normality. I think it's kinda good that you're not in a place where you care a whole lot.
The problem with desire is that it's not supposed to be work. If you're working at it, it has kinda unpleasant tones to it. You're just supposed to desire, and enjoy the object of your desire.
So don't put too much pressure on yourself, Mattie. Just lie back and day dream from time to time. Dream about your H wearing nothing but black socks with those sexy garters you see from the 30's.
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tbone! Gosh! you too, Mattie!
