I had always thought myself a lucky man thoughout my adult life by having no regrets. In the year 2002, right from the beginning, that had all changed and even though the year has been the worst year of personal hell I have ever experienced, this Thankgiving holiday is truely the one in which I have the most to be thankful for. Although I don't consider myself gifted with the grace of the written word, I feel compelled to acknowledge the things I am so grateful for. So here it goes...
I'm thankful ...
... despite all that had happen to cause such personal pain for both myself and my wife, that we found the forgiveness within ourselves and to give to each other in order to leave the hurt in the past and move foreward together.
... for the lessons I needed to learn from this painful experience.
... for my wife's returned love for me and her desire to show me everyday.
... for the chance to express my love to her each and every day.
... for my renewed look on life and the chance to enjoy each day that comes from this day forward.
... for the oppurtunity every day to rebuild our M into something better than it ever was in the past.
... to share our dreams of the future together again and the chance to make them come true.
... for Michelle, her books and this BB. For it was her written words that allowed me to be so thankful today and the existance of this board to offer such great support in the effort to save my marriage when I had no other.
... for the people on this board who despite their own deep personal pain and grief are so gracious to give to others here the very thing they are here seeking for themselves.
... for the rebuiling of the nearly destroyed R with my 17 yr old D who moved out in anger at the first of the year.
... for the closer bonding and for the all the joy my 8 yr D brings me.
... for my 23 yr old step-D for leaving the nest ... again ...
... for some many other littler things just to numerous to mention.
I think perhaps this may be a start of a new tradition for me in order to reflect on the positives in my life and not to take them for granted ever again...
No matter where you are in life, I hope you all are be able to reflect upon all the positive things you have to be thankful for this holiday, and commence the day in celebration. I wish you all ... the happiness you all deserve.
