Hi, KAW.

I've been wanting to post to you for a while, but things have been pretty busy on this end.

I went back and re-read what you wrote and trust and how they could turn things around so quickly in their minds. "Making the decision" is what my H said to me when I called him on his sudden turn around. Yes, he "decided" to love me again and work to make things right with us again. I can't help wondering if he actually "decided" to not love me for a while so he could be involved with other women. I'm not sure I totally buy into the "made the decision" theory. I still think that feelings or the lack of feelings involve more than just deciding. Perhaps the decision comes in letting go of whatever it was that was keeping the love from shinning through.

I'm sorry to hear about your W's problems. How frustrating to have to wait until Oct. 3rd for a doctor's appt. Well, tell her to keep in mind that if it was anything really serious they'd have asked to see her immediately. So, can't be too bad.


Mattie