I get a sick feeling in my stomach reading your post.
Is this what marriage is suposed to be about? One partner being "depressed" and wandering about all over the place (in a manner of speaking) to find his peace, while the other is on continuous alert and bending over backwards to keep the marriage holding, keep themselves "attractive" to their partner, bury their own pain and disappointments in life etc etc. Where is the taken-for-granted COMMITMENT? Does this man support and cherish you? You certainly deserve it.
Your H's pressuring you to get a job is ominous, in light of the fact that he earns well and that your children are doing better with your attention as a full time mother and home maker. Frankly, if you are working full time and earning well, he will have to pay you less should he decide to bail. What reasons does he give for insisting you go out and work?
I went to the doctor yesterday and she has told me to go see some specialist in infectious diseases at the hospital. It may take a while to get an appointment, let's see. She says I may have picked up a viral infection, but I thought those were self limiting anyway?
Hugs to you Ellie
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates
