Quote: H would probably be thrilled to know where I am at with all this, but he doesn't ask and I don't tell.
Is there some way you can let him know a little about how interesting some of your networking has been? Not that you go into details which are still unclear in your own mind, but just that he knows you are seeing progress?
Quote: His behavior is so eerily reminiscent that yes, I've wondered if he's having another affair. I don't think so, but can't rule out a crush or a fantasy about someone else. Certainly he's vulnerable again in this mood
If you don't have some kind of evidence (yes, your intuition can count as evidence, but mere suspicions don't), then why borrow trouble? He might have a fantasy of life alone on a mountaintop with no responsibilities to anyone else and could appear for all the world to be fantasizing a life with some OW.
I understand how difficult it can be with a spouse who cheated before, but the worry will grow if you feed it, no matter whether it's true or not. Don't let that kind of thinking mar your life.
Quote: Sooooo....what to do with all this?
It's good to see that you have some goals set out already. If H thinks MC is a sign of commitment or of hope, then I hope you get a good one this time. Your focus on yourself in your other goals can only make things better for everyone.
Please don't worry about him bailing or you having the strength to pull him back. Keep journaling your networking successes, stay in touch with the other docs who've helped you so far with your career vision, and keep positives in front of you as much as possible.
Thanks,
Joe
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