I'm torn. Between trusting and not trusting..when do you ever get past this??? He acts like he's trustworthy-I cannot imagine him doingnadnsaying the things he does and then him going out and cheating onme behind my back. I guess I want a guarantee and there just isn't any. I HATE this. I want my life bacck where I felt safe and loved and I DID NOT have to worry about any other WOMAN in his life. What do you go by when it comes to trust? Actions? Words? If he wanted to be with her adn not with me wouldn't I have some sense of that-wouldn't he be acting like he is not content. I mean-he's not bringingme flowers yet, but he does tell me he lovs me every day and we are intimant alot and that is VERY good. For awhile he did not trust me when it came to sex-he thought I was using it to keep him-that I would go back to my old ways of not wanting him. I think after over 5 months he is beginning to see that its for reals as Lily would say. My problem before had to do withthe antidepressant I was on but he still took it personally. I just want the knot in my stomach to go away and know that he is where he wants to be and its not just becasue of our S who is a junior. I'm afraid he;s waiting fro him to leave and then he'll be out of here. Ok...I'm obsessing. Calm down......Its just so hard to beleve that he loves me. Why is that?? Rachael
