That's all I can say...no advice....Hang in there Stongbear.
No wait....I'm a bit pissed. You are a strong person. I'm not trying to patronize...Damn this makes me mad. Your H has a STRONG loving wife at home.
OK OK I will cool down now......Strongbear, regardless of what happens you are a better person and a better mom because of this. If your H is lucky he will see you will be a better wife (not that you were bad before)