Always, he just called. He is later than usual, told me not to freak out but he was busy and had to work later (weather related) and I believe him at his word. Told him that I took kids to get bowling shoes. We have been bowling alot and the majority of the cost is renting the shoes....He said, good idea did you get me any? Let's go bowling tonight. I told him I didn't but we could stop on the way to the alley. When I answered the phone he almost sounded afraid to talk to me, like he expected me to be angry. I wasn't. I have been let down so much by my own expectations that I just let things kind of roll off of my back.
Always, I really have been GAL. Kids and I put up a bulletin board in our basement dedicated to all the activities we have been doing this summer. It is packed and the summer is only 1/2 over. We have also decided to make a quilt out of fabric squares and fabric markers telling about the summer of '06. I have been doing alot with my girlfriends and their kids also.
I just think I have been hanging on so hard to my H and my marriage. I have also come to realize, as others here have that I needed to say my peace and let go. It is just so conflicting for me. My H is extremely nice to me when we are together. We have a genuinely good time with eachother so when he goes to work (with OW) I start to freak out. After reading Jokerman's thread and The Diary of an Affair I now understand more of how my H must be feeling. I just hope he realizes how much he is willing to throw away before it is too late.
