After I posted again more came to mind that I figure I should mention here...

This last weekend (before I knew about renewed contact with OM.), W mentioned she wants to do something on our anniversary in Nov. - perhaps go to the Poconos (known for their hot tubs in the been room [Cool] ) That time of the year always seems to find us tight for $$$, the anniversary celebration always seem to be downsized because of it. This year I will find a way to make it happen! [Wink]

Yesterday, I came home for work with flowers. Its been a couple of months since the last time. She smiled and said it helped because she was in a funk. Breif explanation on words here - During her WAW period, she would say quite often she was blue. I associated this as symptoms of her clinical depression returning. Now when she feels down she calls it a "funk" as to make sure it is not associated with depression. There were plenty of reasons for her to feel "funky". Her sister from Florida is up this way and staying with her mother. See went to see her yesterday, however, there is much tension between W and her mother right now over W wantin to leave our M and it got back to W about mother say to other relative that she hopes W get the bug out of her a$$ soon.
While visiting yesterday, she was told her uncle/godfather only has a few days left to live. He was taken off dialesis <sp?> and he is slipping fast.

She told me the cat escaped outside thru the living room screen (but didn't go any further than the deck - indoor cat), so I proceeded to repair the screen. She sat in the room with me, but her mood continue go down so I ask if she wanted to go for a walk or a bike ride or anything else. She said she didn't feel like it. As I put the screen back in the window, she turned on the TV, but didn't find anything she wanted to watch and decided to go to bed at 8:00pm. I joined her to be supportive (it is one of her complaints that she felt lonely and I was distant and uncaring about her feelings), but she told me she just needed to sleep and I should watch the NASCAR race I taped from last weekend in the living room instead knowing I haven't it watched yet. I reaffirmed that I wanted to be with her if she wanted, but she continue to tell me to go watch the race, so I left the room. I began to wonder if this funk is over OM and the thought still lingers with me now. I can't seem to shake it. Aaaarrrrgggghhhh... [Frown]

'til later,
KAW