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[KAW]

Thanks tree. That's kinda of what I needed to help boost my PMA. I wasn't getting many visitors here and I don't feel I really have much to offer to others lately, so I was getting kinda down and I didn't want that to effect the home life.

My biggest insecurity is that my sich was such a quick leap compared to everyone else here that it cann't be for real!

I am battle with my PMA right now as well because on Monday evening, I walked in the room to see my W writing again in her journal. This occurrs when she is troubled. I could fight the urge to snoop and discovered in her recent entry that she has seen OM again last week and asked for him to come over! Snooped some more to find out she first contacted him on 7/25!! She wrote although he seem enthused to see her, he hasn't called back or shown up. The new wrinkle is that she wrote now that she loves us both and questioned why she shouldn't be able to have both of us!!

I'm trying to interpret this as a fantasy wish, but I fear she might act upon this just the same, she did admit to having a PA with him earlier. I'm trying to remain calm and not "freak-out" over this and it seems to help to know that he seem to be encouraging more contact.

I pondering what I have to do from here. I know I must continue to make myself even more attractive to her but how. All she hinted to in her journal is that he always smells so good! I could really use some feedback for others right now...

'til later,
KAW