Mama and GH and others....I'm proud too, that, as Stevie pointed out, that we "stayed and faced" things. I did as well, for months. They were the hardest ever. Now that I'm out of the house (not my choice), I look back and realize how traumatic it was.
So...as a warning to all, when you do come to a final and good phase in the M, rounding the bend, don't be surprised at these emotions of trauma coming out. Coming here and venting really helps us to cope and process, but you will still hit a point where you look back and think "oh my GOD, what happened there and what did I live with." I think this is natural, and will pass, but just be aware and get help, come here, see a C, whatever. In my case, I let my H know (angrily b/c it all popped out, ugh) that it was like carving my soul out each day living in that....but it also honed my skills in unconditional love and understanding and most of all, patience.
Each time I think it was hell, I remember what it must have been like continuing to live with me when I was really nasty....not fun.
