Hey Mama, good to see your posts again! Love keeping up with your life!
You're doing great. Just think of it....you could have chosen to handle this by not changing and reacting the way you always did, being pulled by the storm and being angry. Instead, you're reading, you're looking within, you're being patient and loving and bearing with the storm. One day he will realize how hard it was for you to live with him as a loving W when he was betraying you each day.
In the meantime, I can't help but to think, from H's notes and other loving things, that is he still seeing OW? Is she still in the picture. I know in my H's case, I could tell when it was over, he was actually NICE to me...before he was rude, aloof, obligatory--it was hard for him to have both happily in his life.....your H seems so nice and attentive at times, so it makes me think that perhaps he's not seeing OW.
Keep being graceful, patient and nice. I still think this isn't the time to ask questions, etc. You need more of a foundation between you both before coming out with all of that. Take it from me, I pushed too early (not knowing H was still not ready for that, as he indicated he was), and let my anger/pain out too early...take it slow.
