Kaw... keep coming back...and posting...and talking and coaching others through your experience. This went rather quickly too... most take waaaaaay over a year to cycle into some kind fo real R thingys....
Your feelings and exp[ereinces will help other guys who want to quite too quickly.
I read that somewhere... men leave relationships too quickly and women hang on too long.... hmmmm
You have lots to contribute so do stick around ok?