Hey Andy, you're sounding better albeit super tired and frustrated. Still hear a little second wind tho.

What have you been doing to help you to get as reasonably over your humps? I mean in learning how to retrain yourself and old ways of doing things. Maybe a little short time councelling is an idea to pursue a bit? I can't remember if you mentioned it. Sometimes it's nice to go somewhere to get all the junk out and if you're paying then it's a safe zone. I did it for a while...she was very neat and understood I wasn't necessarily looking for solutions from her but I sure needed to get many years of garbage out and she was great for me.

I don't open up to too many people. Most people just don't really know what to do with it and I wouldn't expect them to anyway. It's still nice to have trusted someones who you can lean on in a pinch.

You know, IGgy & I are in the throes of what in the past would have been catastrophic times. It hurts but I still just can't get away from how different it is. We're both so tired and I think we've both been changing a lot over the time too. He's being a right bastard and I'm not taking possession of his reverting...yet believe it or not...it's different. We aren't reacting like we did even when we (mostly he) slips back into old habits that are hard to break. It's actually a huge blessing. Maybe you guys are finding your way around to that sort of thing? I hope so.

Thinking of ya and glad to see you making it thru ok. I've said it before...you're growing and changing too. It's quite noticable. That's bound to cause more rough waters [Wink] .