Yeah, tree. The first time around, I was blind-sided. Ain't gonna let that happen again. If I start the meds and things get better, then nothing lost. If I don't... Don't wanna even think about it.
As to a C. I don't think she'd go for it. She knows why she feels the way she does. And frankly, I think "exploring" it would just be picking at the sore.
In any case, she sees C as a way for me to get what I want. Someone who will tell her how to behave.
My blowout was just like the OR talks on my old threads, eh?
But there's a slight difference. Her tone was much more sympathetic this time. When she told me that she still wasn't attracted to me, she said, "I know it sucks to hear this, but that's just the way it is right now."
But, it did suck to hear it. That's what I was referring to when I posted that I was afraid to ask lest I hear something I don't want to hear.
