Oh dear Andy-when I said you did not seem like the Andy I knew, it was totally out of concern for you! You have been there for me SO many times-for ALL of us-and when I heard the hurt in your words I wanted to help. You are entitled to every single feeling that you have. One thrapist I know always said feelings are never right or wrong-their just feelings. You have talked about guilt, for whatever reason. If you screwed up somehow, feel it,and ask for forgiveness if you feel you need to-but, since none of us know what you feel guilty about, maybe its something that needed to be done or said. You are pretty tough on yourself-like you deserve less than what you need. We all deserve what we need when its involves being understood, heard and loved by our S. Most of us are not getting alot of those needs met-will they ever change?(our S) Probably-in some way,shape or form. It's the only sure thing in life-change. I hope your depression is better since you started back on the meds.It makes it all the rougher, and ususally when we're depressed we are needy. My H does not get depression so he does not know how to help. Are you having anxiety also? That's my demon. IT really bites too. I could ask for reassurance 24/7 from my H just to feel a little less anxiety but we all know we can't go there. Dear Andy, I hope you are feeling better-you deserve so much more than all this. Let us know how you are-pleeeeease, we care! Love Rachel M
