My suggestion is that one evening soon you should arrange for all the kids to be safely away from home. Then you should have as many drinks as possible to feel uninhibited yet still semi-cogent. Then you should tell MsHD everything you've been posting on this BB. I mean, geez, how could your situation get any worse. Your thread reminds me of why I think being absolutely opposed to divorce is a bad idea- if you can't have a divorce fantasy the only alternative fantasy is pretty grim.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
