I forgot about the website being in the new book. That would explain a lot.
Update: W was home by herself for most of the day and it looks like she spent it on the computer. She seemed rather distant when I got home. It appears to me by her actions that she contacted some of her "friends" yesterday. I fought my reaction to say something about it or just snoop and confirm my suspicions because that won't really help me. I was going to act "as if" but I am wondering if I should just distance instead. I usually pursue at this time but I am thinking a 180 would be good here. I want to back off when she does this but I am not sure what would be best. Any thoughts?
Actually, I am probably just trying to save this M to prove that I can do it. I have actually started to feel "fake" in the R. My respect for her is near zero because of her deceit and selfishness. Doesn't that sound terrible? Has anyone else dealt with these feelings?
I used to have such drive for everything I did. Now, I am either doing things "for her" or as a distraction "from her". This sitch has made me a little bit like a zombie. May be this is a sign that I am really not living for myself. Anyway, my anger seems to be boiling inside me over this whole sitch. I keep thinking "Who does she think she is?".
I plan to stay on the high road but it sure is tough. I guess I will get over the hurt and embarassment she has caused. I did need some humility.
