2nd Time Learning IV

[brueniap]

I've got to agree with these guys IWB. It's too "in your face" and your emotions and health get the better of you. I am a huge believer in our health being affected by the way things crawl into our brain negatively. It's like gum disease eating away at you til your teeth rot out of your head!!! How's that for an analogy.

I will continue to say - pray, pray, pray! Hold on to God. One day it hit me that the ONLY One in the whole wide world I could trust is Him. That includes me - I can't trust me either - how many times I'm flailing around back and forth. One day I'm up and the next day I'm down. Our emotions drive us crazy. But with God - well - He keeps our emotions calm.

You are down on yourself too much with your attitude IWB. You've got to get out of that. It will only get worse. You know that YOU are your own worst enemy. As for the hugging of the edge of the bed.....I wonder - do you have another bedroom you could move in to? I think eventually you would go to sleep in peace - after you got used to it. You've always said that for the household to split would not work cuz of finances - but I'm thinking that separate bedrooms would at least give you some peace so that you're not laying there feeling bad over her hugging the edge of the bed.

I will say, above all, you need to work on you just to get your health back. Somehow you have to change how you react to things because you are so hurt. I know that posting here can be hard - I've had that problem myself - and I have been watching those of us who have been here the last year or so and see how we cycle. But there is growth. Do not be afraid to post and let us know how you're doing. It's ok where you are - that's why we're all here - to help each other get thru this hand we've been dealt. There are good things to come out of this.

if you ever need to email and talk - you are welcome to do so. I was glad to see you post this morning so that I could know how you've been getting on. Let's see if we can't get this new year out of the gutter and turn it around.

hugs,

brue