2nd Time Learning IV

[brueniap]

Then leave the "power" in the Lord's hand IWB - you'll know when it's time to do it. I have often thot that if my H didn't leave me when he did we would not have made it back to where we are now. The blessing to my story is that I truly believe that our separation is what is bringing us back together. This journey we've both been on, tho different for each of us - is causing a healing much faster than the very slow growth we were having trying to do it on our own while living together.

Not that either of us is in counseling - but in our cases I am seeing that true full dependance on the Lord (at least for me) has shown me remarkable things. I would have missed great life if the life had not changed like it did.

H walking out truly has been a blessing in the major scheme of things and I am more centered and more able to focus on life in a better way then when he was here.

Your eyes are so focused and centered on the hurt and unhappiness in your situation that it is near impossible for you to get up and move on. You watch your saga each day with a lump in your throat - and it is almost impossible for things to change for you. I think you are too close to it for healing to come for either you or your wife. And why should she change. She knows your going to let her do what ever she wants without a fuss. I wouldn't change either if I could have it all on a platter like that. I don't believe marriages are a place to have open-ended affairs. There is no healing in that. And truly I think healing would be faster in a separated setting somehow. Only you can figure how that would be. You could go on like this for the rest of your life.

I know it's hard to make big decisions like this. Put it in prayer and ask God direction. You'll hear that inner voice talking to your. You see confirmation in many ways.

love to you iwb and many, many hugs


brue