It sounds to me like you are being the perfect DBer IWB. And you are getting a life by finding things to do to occupy your mind. And obviously you are learning to detach. All good things. It's ok to shut down a bit mentally to avoid the hurt again and again.

If she starts to come back toward you - and you ask "will I even care?" well, really, IWB - it doesn't matter. If you don't care anymore it won't hurt you any. You've done what you can. It certainly isn't anything that you need to worry about now. It would be her problem to work out with you. Some here just decide they can not do it anymore. No one holds it against them for say "no more!".

But I will get on your case about your faith. Don't give it up IWB - that's how you got this far. God has not left you like your wife did. HE IS ALWAYS THERE.

And you will be ok.

Hugs to you friend.......and prayers. One of these days life will look brighter.

love,

brue

I'm alive, I'm happy - why shouldn't I tell the world I've got my head screwed back on just fine.
Life is good for the Brue!